Saturday, December 31, 2011

2012

Hey ya'll, it's T -three hours left of the year 2011! AHH SCARY! (No, the world is NOT ending) Only because I remember being about seven or so in my old house watching my very first New Years Eve ball drop. I rang in the year 200! Twelve years ago people! I could barely stay up lol My family thing to do for years was to eat a ton of junk food, but now I'm older and don't eat as much. And sadly my love life is still a no go. I'm HOPING that changes in this new year that I'm blessed to live. Many changes are in the air can you feel them?

Anyway, be SAFE!

love to all.
Jess.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Something to deal with

I should be sleeping sense I have to be up at 8am  (Thanks mom) but my feelings say otherwise, what else is new? Lately I feel like the vibes of the universe are screaming "We're busy leave!" Had a one for the books "Teen Day" as a Gilmore Girl once said, I have these meltdowns about being Handi-Capable sometimes and one of those days happened today, Felt like a big baby/brat I can never tell anyone in the moment though that that's the reason why I get moody sometimes, for some odd reason it's humiliating to admit to just say the words "I hate that I can't walk" to my mom for the first real time. And it was really hard because I'm not as bad off as my sister was or any other kid that needs a little more help I've met in my life
but,  damn it! it's a hard thing sometimes. 

Keep reading
Jess.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Christmas vol 2

Music: She & Him. Song: "I'll be home for Christmas"

Hello everyone out in cyberspace, home from the family gathering we have every Christmas eve and I'm BEAT! to put it in a ladylike way. Gifts were given, laughs and tears were had, Food was consumed, and a good time was had by all! I have not been in a mood for any sort of Holiday fun in awhile due to being sick for three months now, so it was a nice change tonight. For "Secret Santa" this year I had my new sister in law and  I out did myself thanks to some help from my mom and brother craft wise. Mom and I sorted through old photos of my siblings to give out, so many good things my family has taken through photos. And last weekend I met my soon to be "New" step family it was like They'd been with me forever.

it's late now, so I will say Marry Christmas!

Keep reading,
Jess.
 

Monday, December 5, 2011

Dealing

Music: "In The mourning" "Paramore"

"It takes all my strength not to dig you up from the ground in which you lay, The biggest part of me you were the greatest thing and now your just a memory to let go of"- Paramore.

Seemed like a good quote to start this post off this evening/Morning wherever you may be reading this, your take on this lyric/quote can be whatever you need at the at this time. Mine however is a whole messed load of things. So let me see if I can sift through my brain to write about one, letting go of someone's life struggles for one. Something I've said I think I feel a lot of in my life I've been sick for sometime with some sort of bug for awhile so I've had a lot more time to be in my head (Not always a good thing) so I've just been in this long period of feeling pretty mentally deep when in reality I am probably coming off as a complete weirdo. Even writing this I feel that way. well like I've said this helps me somewhat sort out the craziness in my life.

Keep reading, 
Jess.