Music: Spotify mix
So, here's where my head is at right now, I can't say my will power is completely gone, but it's not as strong as it once was. I'm not saying I can or want to go out and do whatever the hell I want, but lately I've just been tired. Tired of being twenty two and having never lived. I remember all to well what it's like to be closed off and alone. I'm still in that place. But I want to be risky, I want to feel what it's like to act my age, to breathe. I never feel as though I breathe deeply anymore, like something is just keeping the breathe inside my lungs. I'm probably setting myself up for years worth of therapy, but I want to just let go for awhile....see what might be.